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i dont know. lately i've been having trouble with school. not trouble in the sense of it being hard, just trouble concentrating, wanting to do work, and wanting to be here. and i say this all of the time, but do what i have to do anyway. recently it hasn't been the case. i dont do anything. i dont read what i am assigned, i dont listen in class, and i walk around havning no idea what it is i was supposed to learn. i still have no idea what i want to do. englsih is such a broad major. i could do a lot. but what? i have to write this paper, and its only five pages. normally i would have no issues completing this assignment, and it would only take an hour or two. i have absolutely no motivation what-so-ever, and still havn't finished it. its getting harder and harder to do homework and go to class when i dont even know what im doing it all for. thats another thing. i skip classes way too often.
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| 11:38am 30/01/2006 |
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i havn't written in here in a while. i am procrastinating again.
life has been wonderful lately. I have the best best friends in the entire world and i love them so much and they make me so happy.
school is alright... im only taking 12 credits. im a loser. oh well. who needs school anyway. i like the english thing.
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| 01:49am 11/12/2005 |
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mood:  curious music: i should tell you...
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1. ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT?
one on my leg from chasing lady down the driveway
2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM?
at school and obscene amount of pictures, home a varitey of things
3. WHAT DOES YOUR CELL PHONE LOOK LIKE?
silver and scratched
4. WHAT MUSIC DO YOU LIKE TO LISTEN TO?
lots of shit
5. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN?
no
6. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW?
sex
7. WHAT DO YOU MISS?
sex
8. WHAT IS YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSION?
idk
9. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SMELL?
boys
10. DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC?
sometimes
11. DO YOU GET SCARED IN THE DARK?
after watching a scary movie
13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE COLOGNE / PERFUME?
curious
14. WHAT KIND OF HAIR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX?
depends on the guy... kinda shaggy is real cute
15. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF PROPOSING AT?
i hope im not the one doing the proposing
16. COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINKS?
mountain dew
17. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PIZZA TOPPING?
cheese or meatballs
18. IF YOU CAN EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
ugh so full
19. WHO IS THE LAST PERSON YOU MADE MAD?
laura...i scaredher
20. DO YOU SPEAK A DIFFERENT LANGUAGE?
ciao
21. WHAT WAS THE FIRST GIFT SOMEONE EVER GAVE YOU (OF THE OPPOSITE SEX)?
a pink leopard wallet... i loved it
28. WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE PERSON IS LEAVING?
i think so
29. WHAT IS THE BEST WAY TO TELL SOMEONE HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO YOU?
just say it
30. SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED?
22
31. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES?
BLONDE
32. WHAT IS THE ONE NUMBER YOU CALL OFTEN?
my moms
33. WHAT ANNOYS YOU MOST?
nail files, when someone says how they feel and then doesnt do anything about it
34. HAVE YOU BEEN OUT OF THE US?
yes, italy
35. YOUR WEAKNESSES?
a select group of males
36. WHERE WERE YOU BORN?
new brunswick
38. EVER DONE A PRANK CALL?
yea
39. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU FILLED OUT THIS SURVEY?
driving
40.IF YOU COULD GET PLASTIC SURGERY WHAT WOULD IT BE?
i wouldnt
41. WHY DID YOU FILL OUT THIS SURVEY?
freakin bored
42. WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT MOST?
my hair and my boobs
43. WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF ALCOHOL WAS OUTLAWED?
drink anyway
44. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY?
love
45. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT?
3
46. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
my grandma grace
47. DO YOU WISH ON STARS?
sometimes
48. WHICH FINGER[S] IS YOUR FAVORITE?
middle
49. WHEN DID YOU LAST CRY?
tonight in the movie
50. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
yea
51. Whats your favorite lunch meat?
lately its been bologna and salami
52. ANY BAD HABITS?
a bunch
53. WHAT IS YOUR MOST EMBARRASSING CD ON THE SHELF?
i dont have anything embarassing on this shelf
54. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
yes!
55. HAVE YOU EVER TOLD A SECRET YOU SWORE NOT TO TELL?
yea
56. DO LOOKS MATTER?
i think that its nt the only thing, but i think you have to be attracted to the other person, otherwise there is no PASSION
57. HOW DO YOU RELEASE ANGER?
scream, throw things, drink a good amount
59. DO YOU TRUST OTHERS EASILY?
im getting better at the trust thing
60. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY AS A CHILD?
my play kitchen and the cash register
61. HOW MANY NUMBERS ARE IN YOUR CELL PHONE?
i think like 80
63. DO YOU USE SARCASM?
no...
64. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN A MOSH PIT?
yes
65. WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A GUY/GIRL?
humor, confidence but not cocky
66. WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES?
we're working on this one.... Ho, Stinkman
68. DO YOU UN-TIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
sometimes
70. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR?
cake batter
72. WHAT ARE YOUR FAVORITE COLORS?
pink, black, yellow
73. HOW MANY WISDOM TEETH DO YOU HAVE?
:( ... as of the 19th NONE! scared.
75. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
i sure do
76. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
laura is playing the rent soundtrack, and i think the chick next door is having sex
77. LAST THING YOU ATE?
kit kat
78. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
philly baby
79. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX?
eyes, lips
82. FAVORITE DRINK?
vodka... cough... i mean mountain dew
84. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SPORT?
fooootball
85. HAIR COLOR?
mine? blonde
86. EYE COLOR?
mine? blue green
87. DO YOU WEAR GLASSES?
i think i need them
88. SIBLINGS?
eri
89. FAVORITE MONTH?
june and december
90. YOU LIKE SUSHI?
absolutely not
91. LAST THING YOU WATCHED?
rent
93. ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT?
no
94. SUMMER OR WINTER?
SUMMER
95. KISSES OR HUGS?
both at the same time
96. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE NIGHT STANDS?
i thought i was looking for the whole one night stand thing, but i think i am ready for the other one
97. WHO IS THE MOST LIKELY TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
faith
98. WHO IS THE LEAST LIKELY TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
anyone else
99. WHAT BOOKS ARE YOU READING?
jane eyre
100. WHERE DO YOU WORK?
DeVliegers |
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| 06:45pm 14/11/2005 |
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Yes, it's true
You've brainwashed me and now I'm more confused
I still somehow hope I end up with you
Yes, it's true
I romanticize every single thing I do
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| 01:44pm 05/11/2005 |
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something obscure hun. |
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| 10:04pm 28/10/2005 |
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mood:  creative music: farts
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so i have the best friends in the world. seriously.THE best. i dont think there will ever be a time where we dont have fun. the past two weekends have been insane and i love it. jim val and fay came to west churster. i wasnt even that wasted, and ive never had so much fun! ah! today was amazing as well. AH!
i dont have any words.
maybe just three.
... fart in target.
earl.
GOODBYE!
they all need to come back right now! |
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| 06:31pm 22/10/2005 |
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party in the house last night was crazy. CRAZY. ive never ever been so drunk in my life. it was border line obnoxious. i think everyone was. just a few comments to make. my bed hasnt seen that much action in a long time. orgy status. we are a sick bunch, and i love it. bottles of vodka dissappeared faster than anything ive ever seen. there was a fire. a bottle was spun several times. laundry. lips. mozz balls. and its safe to say joe and i broke the rules by removing our pants. somehow i woke up with two pairs of underwear on. overall, one of the best nights ive ever had. ever.
feelin it today, and im very impressed with everyone who made it up and to work this morning.
although phil is probably still mumbling something about pictures in the kitchen. haha. love it.
im glad i felt better, even though my germs landed on everyone last night and i probably made everyone else get sick. oh well it was worth it.
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| 05:37pm 10/10/2005 |
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| 02:23pm 10/10/2005 |
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mood:  lonely music: white houses
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so fall break hasnt been anything spectacular. friday went to pick faith up with larry. joe came with us to olive garden. then home. then to colonial with giblet and faith. saturday i hung out most of the day, tried to dye my hair, it didnt do anything and i still have the same color hair, then went over to faiths and hung out with em and lar. we sang a bit. yesterday i did pretty much the same thing. hung out, was supposed to take faith back with phil. went to phils, joe was there. piled into my car, walked around the mall for a while, then picked faith up, picked up my unsigned check from my house for phil, then dropped everyone off in monroe and went home. had a nice little dinner with my family then hung out again. notice nothing so far involves doing my ridiculous amount of homework. i think i lost my king arthur book. i cant find it. today i basically did nothing. tomorrow im sure will be the same, but at least tomorrow means back to wc.
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i dont know whats been wrong lately. thats a lie, i do. i guess i just feel lonely, and kind of empty. i realized i shouldnt be holding on to something that is never going to go back to how it used to be. i said something to you that i shouldnt have, and im sorry for putting you in that position. what really makes me upset is that you seem to have no problem with any of this, maybe youre even happy? i wish i could just let things go like you can. its been almost two months and i just cant move on. i thought maybe i could. but it doesnt seem to be working out that way. i miss what we had. i miss our late nights, i miss you making fun of the dumb things i say, i miss the feeling i felt whenever i saw you, i even miss fighting with you because at least then you were still part of my life, i miss your bed and the comfort of your room, i just miss you.
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| 11:47am 06/10/2005 |
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| 01:18pm 05/10/2005 |
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so this week so far has been hell.
my computer is ridiculous, although i think its finally under control. after a weird fellow named lawrence who had quite a tude came to replace my mother board last night and i spent hours trying to figure out what was wrong with norton.
oye.
i have so much studying and homework this week.
the kids were heinous yesterday.
ive been thinking a lot about someone.
ive just been depressed the past couple of days and i want it to go away.
i just push everything good away because of this. and i keep thinking if i had it i would be so much happier, but i know it probably wouldnt turn out that way. so i guess i cant be happy either way. i just really miss you.
i want to go home right now.
i also want half price apps at apples with my girls. who i miss. a great deal.
home. now. please. |
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| 05:33pm 03/10/2005 |
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today i was rushing in a haze, and a gust of air brushed against my face, and the fragrance of you overwhelmed my senses. suddenly flashes of memories flood my head. your hand intertwined with mine, you above me, your face, your charm. i lose track of my priorities and a tear emerges from my eye. I can feel the liquid travel down my cheek and see it fall to the ground below, and i realize, i miss you. |
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| 12:58pm 02/10/2005 |
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mood: curious music: laura is snoring....jk
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so this babysitting thing has been going pretty well. the kids are fine. i make 105 a week which is amazing, so i think im gonna stick with it.
thursday finally rolled around after a long week and after babysitting we waited around for phil to get here. he got here. we drank. went to rigggggtown and then came bakc and phil and laura took naps while i waited for the fun and spontaneous joe who decided at two am he wanted to visit west chester. i absolutely love it. after backing up on the turnpike he finally got here and ran across the grass screaming to meet me. i love that too. lol. we drank some more and then decided to go to sleep. joe was carne. these beds arnt made for two people. woke up early. ordered in from amores for lunch. got ready. waited in a lot of traffic driving to philly. finally got there. paid fuckin 10 dollars to park my car. walked to this shady pizza place and ate pizza and went to rite aid to get drinks for after. then waited in line with ashlee wannabeees. lol. concert was fabulous, the opening band was really really good. barefoot. ashlee was cute and she knows how to put on a show. after we went in the wrong direction and ended up in camden nj...no good. but we found our way back and made it back to the dorm in no time. phil left and i was gonna go to sleep but laura insisted that i come out with her, jess, lynz, and katie. i coulnt refuse such a wonderfull offer. sooo i got ready and went to some house and i just had to catch up to the girls, cause they had already been drinking, and i drank a lot real fast and ended up "pole dancing" ha. not really dancing but you know. thennnnnnnnn i was exhausted and came back and passed out.
yesterday was kind of a lazy day for a while, did some laundry and found out how to do it for free. did a little bit of work, then went out with larua to old navy to get new flip flops and then we decided to hit up the olive garden for dinner since the never ending pasta bowl is back!!! it was like 5 10 when we arrived and there was an hour wait... people in delaware are weird. so we waited and people watched for a while. some people are very interesting. had a wonderful dinner and stufffffed ourselves and were being really obnoxious by cackling unattractively loud. we got our second bowl to go so we could have it for lunch today. drove to acme and i felt like i was on supermarket sweep cause we both had to pee real bad and it was absolutetly freezing in the store so we were running around like mad women. yea... went back got ready then went to katies. hung out for a while and then started ... played some asshole, lol. then got ready again to go out. pit stop at goshen then to walnut street. drank some disgusting ass beer. catie shook lyndsays sprite and 99 and then popped the cap off and it made the loudest noise. everyone at the party got quiet for a minute and looked over at us, lol. we coudnt find the cap for a while... and i went to go take a sip of my beer and i see the cap floating in my cup. it was funny at the time ig uess.
annnyways, didt stay to long and came back.
that was my weekend, it was fun.
yes.
today is a lazy day. i havnt done anything.
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im glad this is over. very happy.
yes.
fall break starts thursday at 8.
im excited for next weekend.
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| 11:26am 29/09/2005 |
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mood:  excited
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get over it. now its just annoying.
things to look foward to:
1-phil my love comes tonight and we will drink a good amount of alcoholic beverages
2-ashlee...HAHA
3-fall break starts next thursday
4-halloween
5-hopefully some visitis
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| 09:30pm 26/09/2005 |
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| 01:22pm 19/09/2005 |
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mood: curious music: amber pacific
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"those distant eyes can make me feel so sad and once again we're further away from what we never had" - Amber Pacific
i am a severely confused girl at the moment. i know how i feel. im surprised at how i feel. part of me doesnt want to feel how i feel cause i dont know what could of or might happen in another situation. however, a larger part of me loves feeling like this again.
im just unsure about how to approach it. do i want this right now? can i have this right now?
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on another note. barbs birthday was absolutely AMAZING! im sure she would have appreciated it if she knew who we were! lol. two bottles of vodka down the hatch! lmao! yodels, bruschetta! no pants, pictures, towels, boobies, penises, underpants! it was absolutely so much fun and we must do it again soon.
going home this weekend. seeing faith and phil and hanging with my sisser. city on saturday.
i cant wait for thursday.
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| 08:25pm 12/09/2005 |
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mood:  crazy music: coldddddddplay
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so. ive been here at westchester for a while. theres a lot of work to to be done. but ive already had so much more fun in the past couple of weeks than i did most of last year. yay!
i believe its the first eagles game of the season and ppl are goin nuts here! not me, im all set to watch my laguna beach.
last weekend was kelly ripa with phil and christina...i had an incredible amount of fun. then to the club which was fun with phils id. lol...!
saturday was a sortof hangover and a long drive to rehoboth! it was probably the funniest trip ive ever been on. me and laura...oh man. rohoboth is nice... beach was cute. but getting there was another story...we passed a place called "Billy Bob's Bike Barn" OMG! it was a fun weekend!
my drawing class is absolutely hysterical. i suck at it, the teacher is a bitch/riot.
this entry is all over the place.
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