Amanda

blondey0685 @ 2006-03-06T13:11:00

2006-03-06T18:20:57Z

i dont know. lately i've been having trouble with school. not trouble in the sense of it being hard, just trouble concentrating, wanting to do work, and wanting to be here. and i say this all of the time, but do what i have to do anyway. recently it hasn't been the case. i dont do anything. i dont read what i am assigned, i dont listen in class, and i walk around havning no idea what it is i was supposed to learn. i still have no idea what i want to do. englsih is such a broad major. i could do a lot. but what? i have to write this paper, and its only five pages. normally i would have no issues completing this assignment, and it would only take an hour or two. i have absolutely no motivation what-so-ever, and still havn't finished it. its getting harder and harder to do homework and go to class when i dont even know what im doing it all for. thats another thing. i skip classes way too often.

im not sure if i feel this way because im just ready for spring break to be here, or if its something more than that...

i think its the latter, but we'll see.

blondey0685 @ 2006-01-30T11:38:00

2006-01-30T16:42:51Z

i havn't written in here in a while. i am procrastinating again.
life has been wonderful lately. I have the best best friends in the entire world and i love them so much and they make me so happy.
school is alright... im only taking 12 credits. im a loser. oh well. who needs school anyway. i like the english thing.

eh.

i'm really happy.

blondey0685 @ 2005-12-11T01:49:00

2005-12-11T07:14:07Z

1. ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT?
one on my leg from chasing lady down the driveway

2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM?
at school and obscene amount of pictures, home a varitey of things

3. WHAT DOES YOUR CELL PHONE LOOK LIKE?
silver and scratched

4. WHAT MUSIC DO YOU LIKE TO LISTEN TO?
lots of shit

5. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN?
no

6. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW?
sex

7. WHAT DO YOU MISS?
sex

8. WHAT IS YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSION?
idk

9. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SMELL?
boys

10. DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC?
sometimes

11. DO YOU GET SCARED IN THE DARK?
after watching a scary movie

13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE COLOGNE / PERFUME?
curious

14. WHAT KIND OF HAIR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX?
depends on the guy... kinda shaggy is real cute

15. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF PROPOSING AT?
i hope im not the one doing the proposing

16. COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINKS?
mountain dew

17. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PIZZA TOPPING?
cheese or meatballs

18. IF YOU CAN EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
ugh so full

19. WHO IS THE LAST PERSON YOU MADE MAD?
laura...i scaredher

20. DO YOU SPEAK A DIFFERENT LANGUAGE?
ciao

21. WHAT WAS THE FIRST GIFT SOMEONE EVER GAVE YOU (OF THE OPPOSITE SEX)?
a pink leopard wallet... i loved it

28. WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE PERSON IS LEAVING?
i think so

29. WHAT IS THE BEST WAY TO TELL SOMEONE HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO YOU?
just say it

30. SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED?
22

31. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES?
BLONDE

32. WHAT IS THE ONE NUMBER YOU CALL OFTEN?
my moms

33. WHAT ANNOYS YOU MOST?
nail files, when someone says how they feel and then doesnt do anything about it
34. HAVE YOU BEEN OUT OF THE US?
yes, italy

35. YOUR WEAKNESSES?
a select group of males

36. WHERE WERE YOU BORN?
new brunswick

38. EVER DONE A PRANK CALL?
yea

39. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU FILLED OUT THIS SURVEY?
driving

40.IF YOU COULD GET PLASTIC SURGERY WHAT WOULD IT BE?
i wouldnt

41. WHY DID YOU FILL OUT THIS SURVEY?
freakin bored

42. WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT MOST?
my hair and my boobs

43. WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF ALCOHOL WAS OUTLAWED?
drink anyway

44. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY?
love

45. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT?
3

46. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
my grandma grace

47. DO YOU WISH ON STARS?
sometimes

48. WHICH FINGER[S] IS YOUR FAVORITE?
middle

49. WHEN DID YOU LAST CRY?
tonight in the movie

50. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
yea

51. Whats your favorite lunch meat?
lately its been bologna and salami

52. ANY BAD HABITS?
a bunch

53. WHAT IS YOUR MOST EMBARRASSING CD ON THE SHELF?
i dont have anything embarassing on this shelf

54. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
yes!

55. HAVE YOU EVER TOLD A SECRET YOU SWORE NOT TO TELL?
yea

56. DO LOOKS MATTER?
i think that its nt the only thing, but i think you have to be attracted to the other person, otherwise there is no PASSION

57. HOW DO YOU RELEASE ANGER?
scream, throw things, drink a good amount

59. DO YOU TRUST OTHERS EASILY?
im getting better at the trust thing

60. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY AS A CHILD?
my play kitchen and the cash register

61. HOW MANY NUMBERS ARE IN YOUR CELL PHONE?
i think like 80

63. DO YOU USE SARCASM?
no...

64. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN A MOSH PIT?
yes

65. WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A GUY/GIRL?
humor, confidence but not cocky

66. WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES?
we're working on this one.... Ho, Stinkman

68. DO YOU UN-TIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
sometimes

70. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR?
cake batter

72. WHAT ARE YOUR FAVORITE COLORS?
pink, black, yellow

73. HOW MANY WISDOM TEETH DO YOU HAVE?
:( ... as of the 19th NONE! scared.

75. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
i sure do

76. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
laura is playing the rent soundtrack, and i think the chick next door is having sex

77. LAST THING YOU ATE?
kit kat

78. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
philly baby

79. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX?
eyes, lips

82. FAVORITE DRINK?
vodka... cough... i mean mountain dew

84. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SPORT?
fooootball

85. HAIR COLOR?
mine? blonde

86. EYE COLOR?
mine? blue green

87. DO YOU WEAR GLASSES?
i think i need them

88. SIBLINGS?
eri

89. FAVORITE MONTH?
june and december

90. YOU LIKE SUSHI?
absolutely not

91. LAST THING YOU WATCHED?
rent

93. ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT?
no

94. SUMMER OR WINTER?
SUMMER

95. KISSES OR HUGS?
both at the same time

96. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE NIGHT STANDS?
i thought i was looking for the whole one night stand thing, but i think i am ready for the other one

97. WHO IS THE MOST LIKELY TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
faith

98. WHO IS THE LEAST LIKELY TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
anyone else

99. WHAT BOOKS ARE YOU READING?
jane eyre

100. WHERE DO YOU WORK?
DeVliegers

blondey0685 @ 2005-11-14T18:45:00

2005-11-14T23:46:50Z

Yes, it's true
You've brainwashed me and now I'm more confused
I still somehow hope I end up with you
Yes, it's true
I romanticize every single thing I do
Especially when it comes to you.

blondey0685 @ 2005-11-05T13:44:00

2005-11-05T18:46:41Z

something obscure hun.

"...i mean right, there were going to be girls there in their bathing suits..."

2005-11-02T01:49:43Z

...its like you're in love with me or something...

feeling trapped.

blondey0685 @ 2005-10-28T22:04:00

2005-10-29T02:12:56Z

so i have the best friends in the world. seriously.THE best. i dont think there will ever be a time where we dont have fun. the past two weekends have been insane and i love it. jim val and fay came to west churster. i wasnt even that wasted, and ive never had so much fun! ah! today was amazing as well. AH!
i dont have any words.

maybe just three.

... fart in target.

earl.

GOODBYE!

they all need to come back right now!

...in white houses...

2005-10-22T22:40:45Z

party in the house last night was crazy. CRAZY. ive never ever been so drunk in my life. it was border line obnoxious. i think everyone was. just a few comments to make. my bed hasnt seen that much action in a long time. orgy status. we are a sick bunch, and i love it. bottles of vodka dissappeared faster than anything ive ever seen. there was a fire. a bottle was spun several times. laundry. lips. mozz balls. and its safe to say joe and i broke the rules by removing our pants. somehow i woke up with two pairs of underwear on. overall, one of the best nights ive ever had. ever.

feelin it today, and im very impressed with everyone who made it up and to work this morning.

although phil is probably still mumbling something about pictures in the kitchen. haha. love it.

im glad i felt better, even though my germs landed on everyone last night and i probably made everyone else get sick. oh well it was worth it.

im in love with my friends.

blondey0685 @ 2005-10-10T17:37:00

2005-10-10T21:37:57Z

what am i saying?

in white houses

2005-10-10T18:48:22Z

so fall break hasnt been anything spectacular. friday went to pick faith up with larry. joe came with us to olive garden. then home. then to colonial with giblet and faith. saturday i hung out most of the day, tried to dye my hair, it didnt do anything and i still have the same color hair, then went over to faiths and hung out with em and lar. we sang a bit. yesterday i did pretty much the same thing. hung out, was supposed to take faith back with phil. went to phils, joe was there. piled into my car, walked around the mall for a while, then picked faith up, picked up my unsigned check from my house for phil, then dropped everyone off in monroe and went home. had a nice little dinner with my family then hung out again. notice nothing so far involves doing my ridiculous amount of homework. i think i lost my king arthur book. i cant find it. today i basically did nothing. tomorrow im sure will be the same, but at least tomorrow means back to wc.

........................................................................................................................................

i dont know whats been wrong lately. thats a lie, i do. i guess i just feel lonely, and kind of empty. i realized i shouldnt be holding on to something that is never going to go back to how it used to be. i said something to you that i shouldnt have, and im sorry for putting you in that position. what really makes me upset is that you seem to have no problem with any of this, maybe youre even happy? i wish i could just let things go like you can. its been almost two months and i just cant move on. i thought maybe i could. but it doesnt seem to be working out that way. i miss what we had. i miss our late nights, i miss you making fun of the dumb things i say, i miss the feeling i felt whenever i saw you, i even miss fighting with you because at least then you were still part of my life, i miss your bed and the comfort of your room, i just miss you.

but i guess people have to grow up and move on, i just dont understand why we couldnt grow up and move on together.

blondey0685 @ 2005-10-06T11:47:00

2005-10-06T15:51:39Z

people who would rather look at message boards than talk to their friends are dorks

rules are going to be broken

2005-10-05T17:22:08Z

so this week so far has been hell.
my computer is ridiculous, although i think its finally under control. after a weird fellow named lawrence who had quite a tude came to replace my mother board last night and i spent hours trying to figure out what was wrong with norton.
oye.
i have so much studying and homework this week.
the kids were heinous yesterday.
ive been thinking a lot about someone.
ive just been depressed the past couple of days and i want it to go away.
i just push everything good away because of this. and i keep thinking if i had it i would be so much happier, but i know it probably wouldnt turn out that way. so i guess i cant be happy either way. i just really miss you.

i want to go home right now.

i also want half price apps at apples with my girls. who i miss. a great deal.

home. now. please.

blondey0685 @ 2005-10-03T17:33:00

2005-10-03T21:34:34Z

today i was rushing in a haze, and a gust of air brushed against my face, and the fragrance of you overwhelmed my senses. suddenly flashes of memories flood my head. your hand intertwined with mine, you above me, your face, your charm. i lose track of my priorities and a tear emerges from my eye. I can feel the liquid travel down my cheek and see it fall to the ground below, and i realize, i miss you.

i didnt take my pants off this weekend... well maybe i did

2005-10-02T18:11:37Z

so this babysitting thing has been going pretty well. the kids are fine. i make 105 a week which is amazing, so i think im gonna stick with it.
thursday finally rolled around after a long week and after babysitting we waited around for phil to get here. he got here. we drank. went to rigggggtown and then came bakc and phil and laura took naps while i waited for the fun and spontaneous joe who decided at two am he wanted to visit west chester. i absolutely love it. after backing up on the turnpike he finally got here and ran across the grass screaming to meet me. i love that too. lol. we drank some more and then decided to go to sleep. joe was carne. these beds arnt made for two people. woke up early. ordered in from amores for lunch. got ready. waited in a lot of traffic driving to philly. finally got there. paid fuckin 10 dollars to park my car. walked to this shady pizza place and ate pizza and went to rite aid to get drinks for after. then waited in line with ashlee wannabeees. lol. concert was fabulous, the opening band was really really good. barefoot. ashlee was cute and she knows how to put on a show. after we went in the wrong direction and ended up in camden nj...no good. but we found our way back and made it back to the dorm in no time. phil left and i was gonna go to sleep but laura insisted that i come out with her, jess, lynz, and katie. i coulnt refuse such a wonderfull offer. sooo i got ready and went to some house and i just had to catch up to the girls, cause they had already been drinking, and i drank a lot real fast and ended up "pole dancing" ha. not really dancing but you know. thennnnnnnnn i was exhausted and came back and passed out.
yesterday was kind of a lazy day for a while, did some laundry and found out how to do it for free. did a little bit of work, then went out with larua to old navy to get new flip flops and then we decided to hit up the olive garden for dinner since the never ending pasta bowl is back!!! it was like 5 10 when we arrived and there was an hour wait... people in delaware are weird. so we waited and people watched for a while. some people are very interesting. had a wonderful dinner and stufffffed ourselves and were being really obnoxious by cackling unattractively loud. we got our second bowl to go so we could have it for lunch today. drove to acme and i felt like i was on supermarket sweep cause we both had to pee real bad and it was absolutetly freezing in the store so we were running around like mad women. yea... went back got ready then went to katies. hung out for a while and then started ... played some asshole, lol. then got ready again to go out. pit stop at goshen then to walnut street. drank some disgusting ass beer. catie shook lyndsays sprite and 99 and then popped the cap off and it made the loudest noise. everyone at the party got quiet for a minute and looked over at us, lol. we coudnt find the cap for a while... and i went to go take a sip of my beer and i see the cap floating in my cup. it was funny at the time ig uess.
annnyways, didt stay to long and came back.

that was my weekend, it was fun.
yes.
today is a lazy day. i havnt done anything.

............................................................................................................................

im glad this is over. very happy.
yes.
fall break starts thursday at 8.
im excited for next weekend.

im done with this entry.

its raining

2005-09-29T15:30:26Z

get over it. now its just annoying.

things to look foward to:
1-phil my love comes tonight and we will drink a good amount of alcoholic beverages
2-ashlee...HAHA
3-fall break starts next thursday
4-halloween
5-hopefully some visitis

:0)

i think about you everyday.... lately ive been overwhelmed with curiosity and wonder if you still think about me.

blondey0685 @ 2005-09-26T21:30:00

2005-09-27T01:30:25Z

i have a crush on you

blondey0685 @ 2005-09-25T22:04:00

2005-09-26T02:05:59Z

List 20 friends in no particular order.
1. Faith
2. Kim
3. Laura
4. Emily
5. Larry
6. Steve
7. Phil
8. Joe
9. Brett
10. Erika
11. jess
12. Lyndsay
13. Katie
14. Matt
15. Catie
16. Garrett
17. Jared
18. Sam
19. Trish
20. Jackie
Who is #8 going out with? no one
Is #9 a boy or a girl? boyyyyyy
Would #11 and #2 make a cute couple? they dont even know eachother... and no
How about #18 and #4? they were
What grade is #5 in? Sophmore in college
When was the last time you talked to #12? saw her today!
What is #6's favorite band? idk about favorite... lots of good stuff though
Does #1 have any siblings? GAR
Would you ever date #3? lol LAURA
Would you ever date #7? definetely
Is #16 single? yes
What's #15's last name? Mariano
What's #5's middle name? Scott
What's #10's fantasy? id prefer not to know
Would #14 and #19 make a good couple? no
What school does #20 go to? Rutgers
Tell me a random fact about #11? she is from delaware!
Have you ever had a crush on #16? haha... my little sunshine
Where does #9 live? EB but now Amherst MA
What's #4's favorite color? i dont really know
Would you makeout with #14? no
Are #5 & #6 best friends? nooo
Does #7 like #20? idk but they are in a class togheter
Does #8 like #19? idk if theyve ever met
How did you meet #15? through my sis
Does #10 have any pets? the same as mine..LADY
Is #12 older than you? im not sure actually
Give #13 a hug! i will on thursday
Is #17 the sexiest person alive? he thinks so

LOL this was funny!

boobers

2005-09-22T22:58:02Z

>1) Name: Amanda
>2) Age: 19
>3) Birthday: June 5, 1986
>4) Hair: Blonde
>5) Eyes: Blue
>6) School: West Chester University
>7) Your friends: Faith, Kim, Laura, Phil, Joe, Larry, Emily, Steve,Matt, Brett
>8) Do you have your license: Yes
>9) How many times did you fail your temps test: I didn’t.
>10) Your drivers test: I didn’t.
>11) Your first car: harrison
>12) Your current car: gary papa
>13) College you attend: West Chester UNIVERSITY
>14) Career choice: i have no i fucking dea hun
Your Favorites
>15) Favorite color: Yellow
>16) Favorite food: anything mex or italian
>17) Favorite movie: too many to list. American Psycho, Mean Girls, How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days, A Walk to Remember
>18) Favorite book: The DaVinci Code, The Stranger, Memoirs of a Geisha
>19) Favorite TV show: The OC, One Tree Hill… but I will still always love Dawson’s Creek and Felicity.
>20) Favorite restaurant: On the Border, Olive Garden
>21) Favorite animal: Carl the Fuchsia Elephant.
>22) Favorite season: the beginning of summer
>23) Favorite month: June
>24) Favorite day of the week: Friday.
>25) Favorite candy: Kit Kat/ Reces Pieces
>26) Favorite thing to do on a Friday night: something fun
>27) Favorite store: Best Buy, A.C. Moore. Target
>28) Favorite school subject: Historic Contexts
>29) Favorite song: right now....Thoughts Before Me... I CANT STOP LISTENING
>30) Favorite musical group: HAHA. TOO MANY. All American Rejects, Amber Pacific, Dashboard Confessional, Motion City Soundtrack, Matchbook Romance, Plain White Ts, Fall Out Boy, The Format, Hellogoodbye, Yellowcard, Something Corporate, Taking Back Sunday, Brand New, Mae, Mest, The Postal Service, Rufio, Rooney, The Academy Is…, The Ataris, Sugarcult, Hawthorne Heights, My Chemical Romance, Senses Fail, The Early November, The Starting Line… and the list goes on.
>31) Favorite Skittles color: red
>32) Favorite holiday: Christmas, Rosh Hashanah.
>33) Favorite gas station: I enjoy a good exxon... but lately its too expensive... whatev is cheap
>34) Favorite pizza topping(s): cheese, meatball.
>35) Favorite breakfast food: Cakes and Tots.
>36) Favorite smell: food, boy
>37) Favorite teacher: Mr. Feeney :::battttsss eyes::::
>38) Favorite cake: ones I bake with Kim and Faith.
>39) Favorite kind of frosting on that cake: Chocolate
>40) Favorite soda: MT> DEW
>41) Favorite kind of soup: chicken noodle.
>42) Favorite things in an omelet: cheese, ham
>43) Favorite color shirt: black
>44) Favorite car: gary
>45) Favorite ice cream: cake batta
>46) Favorite vacation destination: North Carolina
>47) Favorite radio station: mostly cds
>48) Favorite CD: too many to list
>49) Favorite room of the house: mine
>50) Favorite brand of shoes: old navy flip flops.
The "or"s
>51) Hot chocolate or chocolate milk: hot chocolate
>52) Dogs or cats: dogs
>53) Friends or family: both
>54) Guys or girls: guys.
>55) Winter or summer: summer.
>56) PB&J or turkey and cheese: turkey and cheese
>57) Night or day: night
>58) Silver or gold: silver
>59) Pen or pencil: pen
>60) Math or science: science
>61) Pink or blue: pink
>62) Singing or dancing: "both if I’m drunk enough."
>63) Boxers or briefs: boxers
>64) Sunny or cloudy: sunnnny
>65) Snowing or raining: snow
>66) Thunderstorm or snowstorm: thunderstorm
>67) Paper or plastic: ...
>68) DVD or VHS: DVD
>69) Top or bottom (you get the idea): bottom
>70) Roller-skating or roller blading: skates baby
>71) Telephone or Instant Messenger: instant messenger.
>72) Clean room or dirty room: clean
>73) Coffee or tea: neither
>74) Milk or juice: either
>75) Chicken or turkey: chicken
>75) Star Wars or Star Trek: NEVER
>76) Easter or Thanksgiving: Easter
>77) Red or Green: Green
>78) Tape or staples: tape.
>79) Trains or airplanes: not fond of either
>80) Pretzel-shaped pretzels or stick pretzels: pretzel shapee
>81) Harley or Honda: Honda
>82) Europe or Asia: Europe
>83) Guinea pigs or hamsters: hamsters
>84) Fishing or hunting: fishing
>85) Snowmobile or Jetski: jetski
>86) Alaska or Hawaii: Hawaii
>87) NFL or NBA: NFL
>88) Hallmark or Carlton: Hallmark.
>89) Taco Bell Chihuahua or Geico Gecko: TACO BELL!
>90) Hot or cold pizza: hot for lunch/din cold for bfast
>91) Florida or California: Florida
>92) Spanish or French: Spanish.
>93) Carpet or wood: looks wood... comfy carpet
>94) Yahoo! or MSN: Yahoo
>95) Bush or Kerry: I don’t follow politics
>96) Cash or charge: Cash
>97) Country or Pop: rock
>98) Pants or skirts: jeans
>99) Sledding or ice skating: BOTH!

A Big YES or a Big NO
>100) Pineapple on pizza: NO
>101) Gay marriage: YES
>102) Death penalty: DEPENDS
>103) Abortion: YES
>104) God: YES
>105) Marriage: YES
>106) Having kids: YES
>107) Learning a foreign language: YES
>108) Recycling: YES
>109) Anchovies: NO

>When was the last time you...
>110) Cried: this morning
>111) Smiled: now.
>112) Laughed: at laura
>113) Drank water: last night
>114) Watched a full episode of a TV show: last nights rerun on oth
>115) Ate macaroni and cheese: hmmm idk
>116) Got drunk: B’s Birthday Bash. Sat night.
>117) Went to school: class? 1230-315
>118) Got mad: idk
>119) Got even: even?
>120) Had sex: end of summer
>121) Went to work: last friday
>122) Went to the mall: umm idk actually
>123) Ate at McDonalds: end of summer
>124) Copied someone else's homework: idk
>125) Went out of the state: I live out of the state... lol... actually 2 weekends ago i was in Penn. Del. Jers. and NY and last weekend was DEL. Penn. NJ...im quite the traveler.
>126) Went out of the country: JULY ITALY
>127) Went out of the continent: JULY
>128) Spilled a beverage: Saturday night… when faith fell on top of me
>129) Turned on the oven: i guess summer
>Who was the last person you...
>130) Talked to: Laura
>131) Kissed: I think it was Kim
>132) Made fun of: Faith
>133) Instant Messaged: Faith
>134) Watched a movie with: Laura
>135) Went out to lunch or dinner with: Laura
>136) Made out with: Brett
>137) Missed: fam
>138) Talked to on the phone: Dad
>139) Slept next to: Phil

>Who is your...
>140) Best friend: FiathKim
>141) Smartest friend: all my friends are smart
>142) Weirdest friend: Phil :) but i love it
>143) Coolest friend: i wouldnt be friends with them if they wernt cool
>144) Drunkest friend: Phil
>145) Nicest friend: Kim
>146) Happiest friend: don't know
>147) Craziest friend: Laura
>148) Funniest friend: they all are funny in their own way
>149) Friend who lives the farthest away: brett sanderson
>150) Friend you hung out with last: laura
>151) Silliest friend: Faith
>152) Dumbest friend: I’m not friends with dumb people
>153) Hottest friend: Faith and Kim and Laura and Phil and Joe HAHA
>154) Friend that you've known the longest: hmm
>155) Newest friend: newest? Lyndsay and Jess and Katie
>156) Friend that knows the most about you: Faith and Kim
>157) Friend that you miss the most because of distance: faith kim
>158) Randomest friend: probalby joe
>159) Friend that you just totally love: ALL OF THEM! .
>On the opposite sex
>160) Hair color you like most: brown... although blonde has been growing on me
>161) Eye color you like most: anything beautiful.
>162) Height: either same height or taller
>163) Weight: whatev.
>164) Hair length: depends on the guy
>164) Boxers or briefs: boxers please
>165) Thongs or Granny Panties: umm I’m hoping no boys are wearing either of those!
>166) Sexiest thing: smile and smell.
>167) Best personality trait: sense of humor
>168) Best physical feature: eyes and smile
>169) Biggest turn on: a boy in a hat! lol and if you smell really really good.
>Random Stuff
>170) Do you like zebras: um...please... queen of zebras here.
>171) Romeo and Juliet or Hamlet: I beleive Hamlet was a better story... but i enjoyed Romeo more/
>172) Have you ever read the whole Bible: nope
>173) Do you ever get motion sick: on buses and cars sometimes
>174) Are you afraid of heights: sometimes.
>175) Do you believe in love at first sight: to some degree.
>176) Do you enjoy Indiana Jones movies: theyre alright
>177) Do you enjoy Ice hockey or Field hockey: neither.
>178) What sports do you play: dance…?
>179) How many people live in your house, dorm room, etc.: Laura and Myself and Fred
>180) When did you last hear the song "Rock Around the Clock": I have no idea hun.
>181) Cable or Satellite: cable
>182) Could you survive without a cell phone: not.
>183) Have you ever seen a rabid rhino: duh.
>184) Have you ever eaten eel: of course.
>185) Does the door to your room swing into the room or out: in
>186) How many times have you been to Disneyland: none. world like 5
>187) Have you ever witnessed a crime and had to go to court: well ive had to go to court but ive never witnessed a crime
>188) Do you sing in the shower: yes
>189) Have you ever jumped off the roof: um no
>190) Your weirdest injury ever: i was run over by a bike when i was little...it kinda hurt
>191) Your biggest pet peeve: idk
>192) Rudolph or Comet: i like them all
>193) The original book or the new movie: book
>194) Reading or writing: both.
>195) Have you ever eaten something that you didn't know what it was and thrown up when you found out what it was: no
>196) When was the last time you washed your hair: yesterday...about to shower though... i promise im not dirty.
>197) Who was the last family member you spoke to on the phone: Peter
>198) What was the last thing you bought: A Book and two cds on amazon dot com.
>199) Where did you buy it: I JSUT TOLD YOU
>200) Was this fun: not really but it helping in avoiding the things i must really accomplish... like a shower... i will do that now.
goodbye.

maybe he wont find out what i know

2005-09-19T17:52:02Z

"those distant eyes can make me feel so sad and once again we're further away from what we never had" - Amber Pacific

i am a severely confused girl at the moment. i know how i feel. im surprised at how i feel. part of me doesnt want to feel how i feel cause i dont know what could of or might happen in another situation. however, a larger part of me loves feeling like this again.

im just unsure about how to approach it. do i want this right now? can i have this right now?

..................................................................................

on another note. barbs birthday was absolutely AMAZING! im sure she would have appreciated it if she knew who we were! lol. two bottles of vodka down the hatch! lmao! yodels, bruschetta! no pants, pictures, towels, boobies, penises, underpants! it was absolutely so much fun and we must do it again soon.

going home this weekend. seeing faith and phil and hanging with my sisser. city on saturday.

i cant wait for thursday.

im in love with faith kim joe and phil.

clap our hands and stomp our feet

2005-09-13T00:33:33Z

so. ive been here at westchester for a while. theres a lot of work to to be done. but ive already had so much more fun in the past couple of weeks than i did most of last year. yay!

i believe its the first eagles game of the season and ppl are goin nuts here! not me, im all set to watch my laguna beach.

last weekend was kelly ripa with phil and christina...i had an incredible amount of fun. then to the club which was fun with phils id. lol...!

saturday was a sortof hangover and a long drive to rehoboth! it was probably the funniest trip ive ever been on. me and laura...oh man. rohoboth is nice... beach was cute. but getting there was another story...we passed a place called "Billy Bob's Bike Barn" OMG! it was a fun weekend!

my drawing class is absolutely hysterical. i suck at it, the teacher is a bitch/riot.

this entry is all over the place.

bye.

i just peed my pants before.

would you like to forget

2005-09-01T15:24:11Z

1. Kindergarten Teachers name: Mrs. Christianson?
2. Last person you kissed: brett
3. Last word you said: be
4. Last song you sang: Set Phasers to stun

5. Last person you hugged: i dont remember
6. Last thing you laughed at: idk
8. What's in your CD player: nothing.
9. What socks are you wearing: none
10. What's under your bed: my dresser and a few other things
12. Current taste: nothing
13. Current hair style: curly and half up
14. Current clothes: jean capris and black tank top
15. Current Job: none
16. Current longing: tomorrow
17. Current desktop: Chris Carrrraaabbbaaa

18. Current worry: my next class

19. Current hate: nothing really

21. Current favorite article of clothing: my new jeans i guess
22. Favorite physical feature(s) of the opposite sex: smile, hair, eyes
23. Last CD that you bought: coldplay / jimmy eat world
24. Favorite place to be: bed
25. Worst place to be: class
26. Time you wake up in the morning: m w whenever tu th about 8 30 friday - sunday LATE
27. If you could play a new instrument, what would it be?: drums
29. Current favorite word/saying: hun
30. Favorite book: Da Vinci Code
31. Favorite Movie: I dont know

32. Favorite bands and song: fall out boy, the starting line, taking back sunday, brand new, motion city soundtrack, matchbook romance, dashboard confessional, and so much more
35. Favorite day: june 5
36. Where do you want to go: to side caf
37. What is your career going to be: i have no i fucking dea hun
39. What kind of car will you have: not sure
42. Eye Color: blue green

43. Hair Color: blondey

44. Righty or Lefty: righty
45. Zodiac Sign: gem
46. Innie or Outtie: innie

DESCRIBE...
47. Your heritage: italian swedish norweigen
68: Shoes you wore today: black old navy flops
49. Your hair: sometimes straight sometimes curly, i dont like it right now
50. Your weakness:
51. Your fears: never seeing you again
52. Your hopes: idk

53. Your most recent secret: idk.
54. Your thoughts first waking up: already?
55. The first feature you notice in the opposite (same) sex: eyes
56. Your bedtime: when i am tired.
57. Your most missed companion: grover
58. Your perfect pizza: white or meatball
59. Sweet and Chewy or Salty and Crunchy: sweet and chewy
60. Single or group dates: single
61. Dogs or Cats: dogs
62. Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: nestea
63. Chocolate or vanilla:it depends
64. Cappuccino or Frappuccino: i dont like coffee...
65. Smoke: no
66. Curse: yea

67. Sing: sure, not well
68. Take a shower everyday: yup
69. Have a crush: i guess not
71. Think you've been in love: yes.
72. Want to go to college: here
73. Want more than what you’ve got: yes
74. Want to get married: yes
75. Type w/ your fingers on the right keys: usually
76. Think you're attractive: sometimes
77. Think youre a health freak: um no.
78. Get along with your parents: mom yes dad no
79. Play an instrument: nope

Have You. In the last Year :
80. Drink: a lot
81. Smoke: once
83. Made Out: yes

84. Go on a date:yup
85. Eaten an entire box of Oreos: came very close
86. Eaten sushi: never have
87. Been dumped: sort of

88. Made homemade cookies: yea

89. Been in love: yes
90. Gone skinny dipping: nope
91. Dyed your hair: highlights
92. Stolen anything: nope

HAVE YOU EVER..
93. Had too much to drink: sure
94. Been caught cheating: never
95. Been called a tease: yeah.
96. Been beaten up: nope
97. Changed who you were to fit in: yeah
98. Cried at something beautiful: what
99. Spent too much money on something you didnt need: yes
100. Cried when someone died: yes

blondey0685 @ 2005-08-31T12:18:00

2005-08-31T16:20:03Z

im sorry

we just need to get past this
its all just bullshit that doesnt even matter

bawwwwwhhh

2005-08-31T03:04:16Z

so i moved into goshen on saturday. it was so much easier than last year. less people, less time, less stuff. i love our room, even though its a sauna. anyways, classes started yesterday, and i think ill like all of them, though my philosopy prof. seems like an ass and i had to spend 60 bucks on art supplies. oh well. i think this semester will be good. class wise. socially i feel like ill be in the same boat as last year. pretty much my whole floor retained their rooms from last year, so they all know eachother which sucks cause its hard to become part of an already close group. oh well. hopefully it gets better. im not really homesick at all like i was last year. sure i miss everyone, but i guess its knowing that ill be able to see them whenevre i want know thats calming.

i left eb and also left a part of my life there, i know its over and im ok with that, its not the end of the world, and its better this way. i wouldnt want to be resented later on because of it.

im going home already on saturday i think. i have some things to take care of.

anyway. things are going good i suppose. laura and i went for a run tonight... ive got to work at it. lol

class doesnt start til 3 tomorrow... im liking this.

k done

barb hun

2005-08-20T01:04:27Z

so last night i was determined to have fun. it worked for a couple of hours. i didnt even drink that much but i guess the combonation of not having an appetite all day and therefore not eating much of anything all day and the pace i was drinking at put me over the edge. i came back downstairs and sat down on a chair in the corner. i couldnt move and felt absolutely horrible, then started running through everything that made me want to drink in the first place over and over in my head and it made me feel even more sick. thankfully i didnt throw up. somehow i ended up on the cold hard floor with my pillow and sleeping bag alone in total darkness. i got freaked out and found my phone and found my way upstairs into bed, on top of everyone else. oops! how was i supposed to know we were sleeping the other way. anyway. i finally started to feel better and fell asleep. only to be waken up by the snoring of the person next to me. i pinched their nose to make them stop. they got mad. i rolled over and went back to sleep. out of all the times ive drank i dont think ive ever had a hangover, until this morning. blah. luckily no work today.

ahhhhhhhhh

sweetheart

2005-08-18T05:21:40Z

i never thought someone could hurt another person as much as you hurt me.
finding out like this made and still makes me sick.
you are a liar and a coward and i can say with absolutely no hesitation that i hate you.